Jonathan has been howling in the middle of his sleep at night recently with no reason that I can see. Usually it’s around midnight.
Yesterday night, he slept and half an hour later, he just cried and cried. I tried to turn him to another position, put back his pacifier, called out to him to assure I’m by his side, etc. None were working. Darling requested me to cradle him to sleep but I just don’t want to make it a habit of cradling him to sleep. At the end, I gave in so I picked him up and after a while, he fall back to sleep.
At times, he just refused to sleep even though he is tired and already rubbing his eyes. In the beginning, I can still tolerate and will try to soothe him to sleep by patting him, caress him or singing to him. I then get impatient when he still refuses to sleep after more than an hour. It’s still alright if he is not sleeping but if he adds the howling and crankiness, there goes my limit. Frankly speaking, I have spanked him a few times and yet no effect. When I raised my voices and try to talk sense to him, he seems to understand and will cry even louder.
What should I pray then? “God, can you make me to be a mother with more patience?” Or rather… “God, can you make Jonathan to be a more goody boy?”