Jonathan Starting Pre-School

Once I confirmed his enrolment in a pre-school, I had been brain-washing him for weeks on going to school, his teacher’s name, the school’s name, etc. He was all excited about going to his new school. 

Infact, he is nothing different than most newbies. In the first week of school, he asked me to go to school with him, refused to enter his classroom, wanted me to stay with him, held my hand so tightly, sticked to me and cried when I left him there. But he was alright after some pampering from the teacher and principal. Despite that, he still love to go to school. He would come and tell me, “Mommy, I got school today”.

Second week was a total change of him. He put on his uniform all by himself.  I let him take his own sweet time in buttoning his shirt,  while I make up and dress up for work. He went down from the car willingly and held the teacher’s hand, said good morning to teacher and then waived goodbye to me.

He is into the 3rd month of schooling. This boy of mine is still excited about school and I pray that he will always be. But Mommy and Daddy is so stressed out every morning having to wake up a sleepy head.  I try my best not to make him grumpy else I’ll be late to work for entertaining a grumpy kid. When he got up from the wrong side of the bed, he refuse to bath, laze on the bed/couch, refuse to drink his milk, walk like a old man. When cupid strikes him, he talks, wear uniform on his own, take breakfast, carry his own school bag, wear his own shoe.

Funny things or angry moments happen every morning.  Overall, I am thankful and glad. My boy had stepped in to another phase of childhood.

Blessed Christmas

Despite the loss and time of healing, Christmas is still Christmas, to celebrate the birth of our Lord, Jesus Christ. He is always the #1 in our heart and mind.

May God’s love be with you and your family this Christmas. Blessed Christmas to all.

Without Her…But Having Him(s)

It has been 2 weeks…

So not used to not having her around. She used to keep me busy – making her milk, sterilizing her bottles, keep watch of her feeding time, administering her medication, bathing her, nappy changing, washing, drying and folding her tiny clothes and organizing her closet.

Missed kissing her, stroking her head admiring her short fine hair, breastfeeding time, massage time, having her chubby cheek resting on my shoulder, watching her sleeping peacefully, cradling her in my arm and singing to her.

Readjusting my life, living without her and to never let the memories of Samantha fade.

In times like this, God’s incredible grace is there to pick us up, to revive lost hope, to heal broken hearts, and to strengthen us.  God has given to me two wonderful man before He gave me Samantha, for a purpose. That is to keep me going and never let me fall today.

I, take u, to be my husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse………to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.

When the doc told us that Samantha is very ill, Darling and I hold on to each other and said, “Let’s go through this together.” Darling had been very supportive throughout this period of uncertainty and pain. He understands my heart and my need. And now, we have each other to share the emptiness and grieve for our loss.

Samantha @ 2 months

God blessed us with Jonathan to keep us busy. He puts joy and laughter in our heart.  There was no chance for us to drop our tears in front of him.  He now knows that her little sister Samantha is with Jesus.  When asked, he will say, “Samantha is sick and die already. Samantha is in heaven now.” We still talk to him about her little sister Samantha hoping that she will always be in his mind.

Jonathan @ 31 months; Samantha @ 2 months (before her condition started to deteriorate)

Here, we would like to say thank you to all of you for your prayers and concern for our family. I felt so touched by all of your love for Samantha. May God bless you.

Goodbye Samantha…

Indeed God loves her more than we do. Thank you all for your prayers.

She is now in God’s good hand. No more pain, no more fear but joy and peace of our Lord, Jesus Christ.

Will be bringing her back to Sitiawan tomorrow, to her Daddy and Mommy’s hometown, for burial.

Samantha…Daddy, Mommy & Jonathan kor-kor loves you. You will be missed dearly…

Prayer Request for Samantha

We know many of you out there are constantly praying for Samantha. We appreciate that and may God bless you. Please continue to pray for Samantha that she may be able to pull through this time and get well eventually.

We admitted her to GHKL yesterday after noticing her breathing rapidly and lethargic. She was not her usual self and she looks weaker and not responding much. Her condition is not getting much better today. Her blood test results are worsening and she doesn’t seems well clinically.