37th Weeks…

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Time flies and it’s approaching October soon. It’s exactly 3 weeks before the expected date of delivery. Starting from the 34th weeks, I can feel the heaviness which really affected my movement. My tummy just grow so much bigger than the weeks before. Before that, I can still move around comfortably. But now, I have to do things in a slow motion. I realised this when I started organizing my long-untouched stuff (or you can call it antics) last week. I could barely squat, bend down, sit on the floor or carry more weight. You can see me walking like a big elephant.

With all these, I give thanks to the Lord for I am assured that baby is growing well. Baby is giving me more “tidal waves” movement. He will turn my round tummy into odd shapes and make me figure out whether the little bump is his fist or elbow or foot or head. I love this game and hope baby will not stop playing with me.

I have started to pack and organize my bedroom/stuff to make ways for baby cot and closet. I bought two large 5-tiers plastic drawers and yet they are not enough for my antics and baby stuff. And I still can’t see an empty space to put the baby cot. Looks like baby’s gonna share the bed with mummy and daddy which is a no no for me. Some of the things have to move out from the room which gives me the headache to think of where to place them.

I managed to shop for my post-natal and baby’s stuff during the Merdeka Sales. My sisters passed down some old baby stuff and clothes. I already got them washed and ready for our baby. Went together with mom to get some herbs for confinement too. Got some tips from sis on what to bring along to the hospital for myself and baby. These are the most I can do right now while waiting for baby’s arrival. There are few more things to be ready but mom is having this beliefs that “not to do it yet until baby is delivered”.

Blameless

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A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the gem of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for office so he asked his wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. His wife, preoccupied in the kitchentotally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle fascinated by its color and drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed the mother hurried him to the hospital. He died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how she was going to face her husband.

When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just five words.

The husband just said “I am with you Darling“.

The husband’s totally unexpected reaction is a proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he had taken time to keep the bottle away, this would not have happened.

No one is to be blamed. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her. If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world. “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.” Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears. And you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

Sometimes we spend time in asking who is responsible or whom to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. By this way we miss out some warmth in human relationship.

30th Weeks…

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Praise the Lord!

By God’s grace and mercy, He has blessed Darling and I this little being that has been growing in me 7 months ago. We went through a tough time last year and through that, God had taught us to be more faithful to Him.

Darling has been extra supportive, loving and caring during my pregnancy. He is already a supportive, loving and caring husband and now adding the extras. So you can imagine how much he sacrifices for me and baby emotionally, physically and financially.

God is really good to me. Besides the backache, heartburn and indigestion, Darling and I don’t have to go through the nightmare of morning sickness. Zero MC so far which makes me a proud employee. 🙂 I had loss of appetite initially but my appetite came back in the 4th month of pregnancy which resulted in weight gain after that. My gynae always say, “Watch out your weight!”. Oh my, what can I do? The food is so tempting. 😀

Month by month, we sees how the baby has grown. My stomach is getting bigger, belly button has pop up, I am much heavier each weeks and my movement is getting slower. And of course baby is growing well in the “comfort zone”. I can feel baby’s movement more intense each day. It has been a good progress so far. We continue to pray that our gracious God will see us through this pregnancy until we meet our baby eye-to-eye.

SAHM

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It has always been my dream/ambition to be a SAHM and I have confidence that I won’t turn back to the marketplace until my children is old enough to take care of themselves. Darling is quite supportive about me being a SAHM to take care of the children and household but he is also quite worried that I will like a “ah sam” or bored. He allows me to be a SAHM provided that I must have a group of friends to socialise with and involve in meaningful activities (not just shopping and gossiping of course) such as handicraft, cooking, church, etc.

Recently people has been debating about SAHM, PTWM or FTWM. Each have their own reasons. And recently, Darling was promoted to a managerial position and has extra responsibilities. Worse still, he has to clean up his ex-colleagues “rubbish” which puts more pressure to his work. Yesterday he told me that he wanted to let go and go back to programming.

What he had shared with me makes me reevaluate my dream/ambition to be a SAHM. He too has an ambition to having his own business or work from home. It is not fair for him being alone fighting in the war for the family. If I were a SAHM, it is not enough by just giving him the emotional and mental support when he feels down at work. If I can contribute to part of the household income, then he don’t have to climb the career ladder just for the sake of the family’s financial. Even if both of us are working, I believe that by God’s grace, both of us can still nuture our children to walk in the ways of God. Things will be perfect as long as we are one in the bond of love and faithful to Him.

Let the Lord guide and give us the wisdom to make the wise choice.

Being an “Educated” Homemaker

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Ever since I was matured enough to think about my future, my ambition/dream is to be a Homemaker.  Most, in fact all who heard about my ambition were suprised. Some think that it is not an ambition. Some think that I will not last long as a homemaker. Some think that it is a waste of education. I still remember asking my mom if she would be disappointed for spending money in my education until Degree and yet I ended to be a homemaker.  To her, she has fulfilled her responsibility in providing us education up to tertiary. All she hopes to see after that is her children lived well and have sufficient income to support ourselves and family.

I’ve been asked by numerous people why I pursue my tertiary education if my ambition is to be a housewife. In fact, I am now a Masters Degree holder. The reason I pursue higher education is to be competitive and for the security of my future. When you are educated, it doesn’t mean you need to be in the marketplace and practice what you have learned. Education is not just for job security in the marketplace. And obviously your husband does not want an uneducated wife for his children.

Our Birthdays in 2006

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Our birthday is an additional celebration which Darling and I make it an effort to spend time together. It can be a holiday, a simple or sumptious dinner, or just a blow of cake. Most of the time, we would take a holiday break, be it a budgeted holiday or an annual breakaway.

This year, felt guilty for not able to celebrate Darling’s birthday to the fullest.  I joined F&N last year thus was still under probation so were unable to take vacation leave.  So, had to celebrate his birthday at home.  He didn’t seems to grumble of course because he had no choice I bought him his favourite Blueberry Cheese Cake. :P He wanted Durian Cake but it was not durian season.  We didn’t want to end up like the durian cendol we had in Kopitiam!

A birthday cake that’s all? Of course not. I made him a birthday card and attached a bookmark. Initially, it’s gonna be card-without-words (hoping Darling can read my love to him which are in my mind :P) but haha…luckily I saw Kharsyn had this cute rubber stamps from McDonalds. So I stamped the whole card with it.  I was thinking to myself: Darling better not get dissapointed, or else….he make his own card. 😛

How about mine? Of course mine would be a good one. 😛 Was confirmed in F&N in March so I took two days leave. We went to Penang for a 2 days holiday. (Thanks to Chyi for her warm hosting) Why Penang? Well, Darling have not really toured around Penang. The last time was there for 2004 Christmas and we experienced the Tsunami quake. We visited the Butterfly Farm, Spice Garden and Bukit Jambul Orchid, Hibiscus and Reptile Garden.